So this morning I awoke to a full-blown panic attack!!! well actually, since I hardly slept last night I guess I didn’t wake to the panic attack, I just simply had one! Urgh! It’s the most horrible feeling. And coz I am working, and in someone else’s house I can’t even have a good old scream to release the tension. So squish the feelings and hold them at bay!
Yesterday was a very long day. Sometimes I not sure which is worse…..working from 8am-11pm and being stuck indoors all day with not much to do and earning a wage, or being outdoors walking and exploring at my own will and not earning a wage! Which is best? hmmm. I think I should just abscond to India and become one of those mad english women who shuffle along barefoot, dressed in long white robes, their hair askew, unwashed, a begging bowl in hand and muttering all the way!!! or perhaps I can install myself in a monastry high in the hills and go meditate and levitate!
On the plus side, the lady I am caring for at the moment gave me a set of books on London, she was going to discard. 4 small little paperbacks that tell the story of 4 different era’s in London’s history! Whoohoo!! so fascinating. There should have been 8 books, but she is not sure where the others are. But hey, I am more than happy with the 4, already found some things I want to follow up on when I get back to London. She is lovely, and is the type of person that I love about this kind of work. Gentle and sweet, not condescending and hoity-toity. It has been a pleasure to be here and if it was not for the fact that I know this is a rarity, I would quite happily do more of this.
Talking of which…..on the job front, I chucked in some random tags words into google yesterday and it spat out some really cool looking stuff. Will have to be a little more targeted and I may just find something right up my alley. Of course I have to remind myself that what I really want to be doing will pull me in two directions! My love is London; to walk around exploring, taking photos, blogging about it and (somehow) getting paid to do so. My desire is to drive around the UK in a campervan, visiting little villages and out of the way beauty spots, exploring, taking photos, blogging about it and (somehow) getting paid to do so! Hahahaha. A metaphorical fork in the road of my destiny! Which way do you think I should go?
During my break today I headed off to visit the village church. There has been a church in halstead for over 1,000 years and unusually for one of these little villages, this church its situated right on the outskirts. On my way there I visited the ancient site of a tiny medieval church built on Saxon foundations, now tumbled down and overgrown with ivy and weeds, the remaining headstones, some of which date back to the late 1700′s line the wall which is about 2 feet thick. The site is English heritage and considered to be of significant interest….I’d agree. It’s set back in a forested area, quiet and peaceful as most of these places are – the only sounds; birdsong and the crunch of breaking wood underfoot.
From there I continued my meandering and discovered the ‘New’ Church. Built in the late 1870′s, in the style of the 13th century, a delightful little building with a bell tower much too tall for it’s size. I was in luck……a service was just finishing as I arrived so I waited patiently in the churchyard, studying the headstones and sitting quietly under a shady tree till they left the building. I then slipped in quietly for a look round. Beautiful. These country churches are something to see. Filled to the brim with memorials and mementoes of parishioners gone by, amazing stained glass windows of intricate glasswork shaped into pictures, some too beautiful to imagine. In some instances the history goes back hundreds of years and many are built on the remains of ancient medieval, Saxon or Tudor sites.
It’s been a beautiful day and I am delighted to have discovered another marvellous little village.