So the first day after resigning was spent in a haze of shock and a not unsubstantial state of terror!! then it was time to pack and take all my belongings back to storage. I didn’t realise just how much I had managed to accumulate once again and how much I had brought out of storage. Lucky that I was planning a break from the 6th anyway, so I had taken a huge suitcase full of books and paperwork and winter clothes back to the storage on Wednesday – the day before I quit. Needless to say there was loads more to move over and I was not feeling too happy. Even though I had made the decision to quit, I still felt quite a lot of resentment….not sure who it was directed at, but I was not a happy bunny.
So Friday night I again made my way over to the storage unit with yet another massive loads of stuff….I really have to downsize one of these days. As I was standing staring into the storage locker the thought crossed my mind that if I was to buy a campervan and start travelling, I would never in a million years get everything I had in storage into a campervan. Urgh!!! possessions!!!!
Saturday dawned bright and as I have for the last few months, I woke real early and tossed and turned, eventually dragging my sorry ass out the bed and headed off downstairs for a most wanted cup of tea. Heaven. I sat out on the verandah and just soaked up the peace and quiet, enjoyed watching the wee birds flitting back and forth from the feeder to the bushes and wondered why I had not seen any of the squirrels for the last few days….not even Sue! who was usually first one at the table. It has been a great treat to sit out on the verandah and watch this little creature who has gotten so used to my presence that it doesnt even run away now when I come out the door. In fact it had gotten so tame that I almost managed to entice it to eat out my hand!!! I am most definitely going to miss this garden.
I felt really sad actually, as I sat there. This has been my home for the last 18 months and I had grown to love the house and the garden and especially the wildlife. The foxes in the evenings as they come to eat the food I put out have been enchanting to watch, and the baby has now grown quite fat (no surprise) and lovely in the last few weeks. Of the four pups I saw a few weeks ago, only the one still returns. I think it may have made itself a home in the undergrowth. But, I digress….
The day did not go at all well after that, and I got a call with a very unpleasant situation (which I won’t go into), but suffice to say that thankfully I had packed up the last of my possessions the night before and only had minimal cleaning still to do before the take-over Carer arrived at 12noon. However, the events of the morning just reminded me really of why it was time to move on! By 1.30pm I was done and finally….freedom!!! no time limits, no night calls, no bossy visitors, and no salary!!!!
I set out for Richmond. I had planned to stay with my daughter for the 2 weeks of my break, hoping to get extra work in the period, but now as it transpires……since I am not going back, it will be new pastures for me. Not sure at this stage if they will be greener.
Two hours later and I was settled in and we strolled into Twickenham for…..guess!!!!! yeah! You got it….cupcakes and tea. Time to celebrate my freedom and with my whole life and future ahead of me the world is my oyster. Now it was time to figure out what to do. Although I can easily pick up the phone and request another caring job, but to say that I am reluctant is the least of it.
So we; my daughter and I sat and chatted, sipped tea and made the most of a cupcake. Afterwards we took a walk along the river and enjoyed the early evening.
The first thing I have to do is register with agencies. The only hurdle I can forsee is that I have been out of the Credit Management environment for 10 years and when I tried to secure a Credit Control position a few years ago…….already then my CV was out of date. In fact to my dismay I had forgotten many of the terms related to Credit Control…but hey! I am damn good at collecting outstanding monies.
My daughter and I are going to update my CV to reflect my newer skills, especially the Internet related skills and then I am going to go full out for interviews. I have already approached a well known Women’s agency that work specifically with women who have been out of the job market for some time. So although I haven’t actually been out of work, I am most certainly out of practice. It’s quite daunting actually.
Sunday we woke early and went for a walk along the river for breakfast at the Tide Tables Cafe in Richmond. A snug little cafe situated beneath the arches of Richmond Bridge. We settled in for tea and croissant and read the sunday papers. This is something I have not done for ages and ages and it was such a treat…to just sit and relax, sip tea, munch my way through a croissant and scan the papers for interesting articles. Heaven. And the beauty of it was that I had no deadline. Hooray! On the way there I spied what could be a residential option if I find myself on the streets heehee.
I spent the afternoon sorting out and repacking my daughter’s office and cupboards, filing and tidying documents and stationery and much else besides. Right up my alley. I love taking piles of paperwork and and stuff and putting it into order. So that was the day. We had a snooze in the afternoon and then headed out in the evening for supper at Giraff in Richmond. Their food is great, and I had a very healthy pizza and a fruit smoothie. Yum! On the way home we stopped just after Twickenham Bridge and sat on one of the park benches situated on the path. It was so cool out and the evening was soft and lovely.
So although I am still feeling somwhat terrified at not having a secured position with the relevant income, it is quite exciting to plan for the future. Raising a glass to adventures yet to come!